Blast From the Past...

“The power to determine action without restraint.”

Is that too much to ask? That is how the dictionary defines freedom. It doesn’t exist. You are forever bound by expectations of what other people think you should do or be doing. I am 20 yrs old. I still have no idea what I’m doing, where I’m going, all I know is where I’ve been, and where I don’t want to go. Recently I’ve been in the "where I don’t want to be" stage. I’m trapped, in a mindset that I can’t seem to shake. I feel as if I have to conform to what other people want me to be. For some reason they think I am a shitty person and that they will make me better, when in all reality the only thing they are doing is pissing me the fuck off and driving me farther away. One day I will snap and be gone... for good. I just keep coming within inches of that point and talking myself back down, because I don’t want to reach that point. Once I hit that point I know I’m gone for good, and life as I know it will change drastically. This is a last resort, but an option none the less. Why is happiness so hard to find? Why must it be something that you have to search for? Isn’t the point of life to actually LIVE LIFE and BE HAPPY? It is completely retarded the way we let others live our lives for us and I’m guilty as anyone at this moment. In the words of my uncle, "I am washing my hands clean of this" I will accept it no longer, I am changing who I am, to who I want to be and I’m doing it pronto. Back into mountain biking that’s for sure, I’m mixing up some gas for the bike tomorrow. I am going to get my life back. I am Brandon Krieg; I live life to the fullest.