Blast From the Past...

Fo shizzle!..ya I still have no idea what that means, I think it’s like "for sure" or "fo' sure" or something like that, but ya... I don’t care it sounds cool LOL...  life is going good again guys.   I’ve been hanging out with friends a lot recently, which isn’t really new, but still.   I think everything is A OK with the whole Kayla, Jeremiah situation now.   Which I’m hoping it is because I’m getting tired of trying to smooth it over.   If this works and things do get "smoothed over" I am going to consider a career as a "negotiator" because this definitely ranks up there in my list of "personal bests" lol... i mean this has actually taken alot of talking to smooth over.  Not because it was a huge deal just because some stuff I said got misinterpreted.  So either way, I hope this all works out.  Fingers crossed. I was telling a friend I hoped this all worked out, and they were like a little baffled because I just didn’t want to end it like in a fight.  and my response was this... and some of you probably know this, and some of you probably don’t,   but I’ve only hit one person in my life,  he was 80lb more than me, and had a good 3inches on me.   I threw the first punch and knocked him back a couple feet and busted his face on the first swing, he didn’t drop but I could tell it hurt him pretty bad,   this person was my dad, and since then I’ve regretted it... and probably won’t ever forget the look on his face when I hit him.  Looking back, I know I could have talked it down within 30 seconds, and I didn’t, I had a macho ill just hit him attitude, and I’ve regretted it for a couple years now.   So there now you guys all know why I don’t fight.   If there is NO way and I mean NO way around it, *has not happened yet* id have to just hand it over to my friends.  They know if they ever need to smooth something over by talking, I can do it for them.  But I have yet to turn it over to them, because I’ve yet come to a situation that I cant smooth out by talking it out.   and honestly I don’t even want to be there to see what happens if I cant smooth it out, it would be bad, and I’d probably rather get my ass beat to hell than let some of my friends go ape shit on someone.  Just because I know how badly they could fuck someone up and very few people deserve something like that.  You can all call me what you want for this attitude towards it, but for those of you who ridicule me for this mindset, remember this,   you never win a war without talking,  if they never say "I give up"  or negotiate about settling it.... it is never over.   It will just continue forever.  However, it is cool to know that my friends always have my back.   I’ve got the best friends anyone could ever ask for.